Things have been going rather well lately. Very well i'd say, seeing as all the mood-swings from a few weeks back have stopped. It's amazing how simple events can influence one's mind for such a long period of time. And in this case, mine. But i'm grateful that things are going well now. I feel like the grasp i have on my life is getting tighter. Not tight enough though, i still need time. But i'm pretty sure soon enough i'll get to the point where the sands of my life no longer slip through my fingers. But it's the waiting part that gets me anticipating the most.
Like i was discussing with Fara earlier, we don't notice the small things we put up with as we go through life. This appeals to a wide range of subjects, but mainly the relationships you have with people. (More like, the relationships I have with people, cause i'm being such a narcissist). After moving, what i've noticed is that over time, i tend to overlook matters. As small as it may be, we are dealing with humans, which means that the smallest detail matters. But all in all, i was amazed by the fact that i was putting up with various attitudes of friends, thinking that it was the best thing to do. Accept and adapt. But since moving, i've learned otherwise. It's not about adapting. It's mutual acceptance.
To add to that, whats been playing on my mind is the fact that how can one person play such an immense role in your life over such a small period. And by that immense role, no i dont mean to influence or change a person. But instead, im referring to how a relationship with someone you barely knew could open your eyes to such an extent. Like in my case, who knew that spending time with someone over a fairly short period of three months could turn my life around almost completely. And yes, that is a good thing coming from someone somewhat antisocial. But all im trying to say is that a single person could turn your life upside down from a black abyss to bliss within a matter of seconds. And in my case, i'm grateful i've met that oh-short person, that managed to open up my eyes if not alot at least by one bit. But no, i wont dismiss the friends and family that have always been with me. They've been with me through ups and downs, like i would for them. No words could describe how grateful i am towards these people, as annoying as the may be at times.
Oh, and we went to genting a few weeks back. With the whole crew, Affan, Afiq, Faqrul, Pian, Naqia, Oppie, and Kecik. May i state that it was indeed a great day. As cold as it was, the emotional warmth was there, as i was surrounded by these people. That day was a small chip of heaven for me. Thanks
Like i was discussing with Fara earlier, we don't notice the small things we put up with as we go through life. This appeals to a wide range of subjects, but mainly the relationships you have with people. (More like, the relationships I have with people, cause i'm being such a narcissist). After moving, what i've noticed is that over time, i tend to overlook matters. As small as it may be, we are dealing with humans, which means that the smallest detail matters. But all in all, i was amazed by the fact that i was putting up with various attitudes of friends, thinking that it was the best thing to do. Accept and adapt. But since moving, i've learned otherwise. It's not about adapting. It's mutual acceptance.
To add to that, whats been playing on my mind is the fact that how can one person play such an immense role in your life over such a small period. And by that immense role, no i dont mean to influence or change a person. But instead, im referring to how a relationship with someone you barely knew could open your eyes to such an extent. Like in my case, who knew that spending time with someone over a fairly short period of three months could turn my life around almost completely. And yes, that is a good thing coming from someone somewhat antisocial. But all im trying to say is that a single person could turn your life upside down from a black abyss to bliss within a matter of seconds. And in my case, i'm grateful i've met that oh-short person, that managed to open up my eyes if not alot at least by one bit. But no, i wont dismiss the friends and family that have always been with me. They've been with me through ups and downs, like i would for them. No words could describe how grateful i am towards these people, as annoying as the may be at times.
Oh, and we went to genting a few weeks back. With the whole crew, Affan, Afiq, Faqrul, Pian, Naqia, Oppie, and Kecik. May i state that it was indeed a great day. As cold as it was, the emotional warmth was there, as i was surrounded by these people. That day was a small chip of heaven for me. Thanks
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